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[Former-Member]

You did nothing wrong @Former-Member, no air to clear. Just shutting down for winyer or something.. But, i never thought to se 'intent' instead of 'ideation' in abb SI sorry. Makes me go look at my past - when the thoughts were one or the other. Guess actions (parasuicide) was proof of intent, or not for some, or even part of me. Hmm, interesting. I know in theoretically - attacking oneself (SH, SI id/in...), the image of God, is sin but... Hmm, needs more thought.
Hope you & Mr Darcy are staying warm... All good Darcy, no ill feelings cause i believe you mean well, have no ill intent (i hope lol). Its when people INTEND hurting that i become enraged with killfire & have to turn it in on myself... to stop hell on earth... (only because Jesus is in my life), But You dont do that to me. So all good ❤

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How is little Esther going?

[Former-Member]

@Heavenbound:heat:

I am soooooooooooooo HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HeavenBound, I have missed you every day. I've prayed for you, I saw you were here in SF yesterday. Please come & write to me, today if possible!!!

I Love You HeavenBound!

GODS BLESSINGS!

Love & HUGS!

Bella XO  :)

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Hi Darcy, my prayer warrior! 🙂
Esther is 100% healed, she looks so healthy, & beautiful, she has been getting all my attention & I've kept her in the house since she became unwell. I will take a photo of her today sometime & post it in CT. Thank you so much for you heart felt, anointed prayers for my little darling girl. GOD gave her a second chance I believe because of all the loving kindness & faith filled amazing SFF & our C/Thread & all the wonderful posts. Our love, & support, really shines like the stars in here, & also in the other Threads, I'm not leaving them out.
It was a tough time at first, & when the abscess broke open, my goodness that was shocking experience!!!
PRAISE the LORD!! for healing Esther!!
I love you so much Darcy, you are Esthers Earthly Angel!!
((((((((((Darcy)))))))))
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX & more!
Esther & Bella! 🙂
GOD BLESS YOUR HEART!

[outlander]

Thats really great to hear @Former-Member im glad shes all healed up now

[Heavenbound]

Hi @Former-Member my sweet friend. I have not been on here for ages due to being so unwell. I have missed you and thought about you every day praying you have been doing ok. I don't seem to be able to make myself do anything, I am stuck in the house all the time, it is so hard to do the things I should be doing. My specialist has been on holidays he went for 3 months and still has two more before he comes back. Well enough of me complaining about my illness. Tell me how you have been and remember I think of you always. love you prayer warrior xxxxx 

[Former-Member]

@Heavenboundheart:

I am so excited that you came back, please don't ever go away again, I honestly missed you so much. I love you because I feel close to you like I've known you for years, funny how that happened? It just did, I liked you from the minute that I saw you in SF. That happened for me with @outlander, too, & @Appleblossom. I am not saying that I don't like anyone else, because I have so many beautiful loving caring people here in SF, this is best Forum on line as far as I'm concerned.

Anyway, you coming back is my prayer answered! Praise GOD!

I was going to write you a long letter, but I just fell into a much needed sleep here on the recliner chair with Ruby my gorgeous fur child, sleeping next to me, & the heater on low, I have been so stressed & wornout from, Chronic pain, & sickness...................

Its 1:20 AM @HeavenBound this is as far as I got with my long letter to you, above.  I went & fell into a very sound sleep again. I woke up not too long ago, & its morning all ready  . I think I am the only one in SF, atm?

I am a goose!!

I have no happy medium, I either have, nite mares & lack of sleep, or fall alseep while typing, twice. RU sure that u want to be my friend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh someone has to wuv me! Amen! <><<

Ok, I am just going to give up trying to type a long letter to you atm, & post this one as silly & incomplete as it is. Then go back to sleep while I can, before falling asleep while typing for the 3rd time.

At least you will know that I meant well, & I did not forget about you, we are both living on our own & house bound, maybe I should change my nic name to >>HouseBoundSleepyhead<< hahahaha

I will write again today sometime promise cross my heart , please don't leave again, I NEED you, I LOVE YOU! I will MISS You, if you go away again!!

Talk type soon, Beautiful Friend!!

BIG HUGS & BIGGER LOVE!

Bella XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXxxxx & More!

JESUS Loves you & so do I!

[Former-Member]

@Heavenbound

@outlander @Appleblossom  @Former-Member @Former-Member  @Adge @Shaz51  & Everyone!

Love & Hugs!

Bella XO  🙂  <><<   

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