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[Teej]

Sounds really good @Faith-and-Hope. That’s what I thought. I was like you when I was studying. Got an idea in my head then had to learn how to do it through lots of tutorials. I liked that part though. 

Hopefully you

l get your head around illustrator one day too. I wish I had drawing skills. I loved using illustrator. 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Could you do a short course in it @Teej ?  Just for the love of it ?  

Is there somewhere that runs that sort of thing at a community or therapy level, like art therapy ?

Its a thought .....

[Teej]

I looked it up again recently @Faith-and-Hope. I don’t know what I’m doing at the moment. I struggled intensely today as you can see. It’s been a really high voltage day. I can’t see life past Friday at the moment when I get rejected from therapy. I’m really messed up about that. I asked my psychiatrist last week why have I made this a do or die thing again. Her response was that maybe it was my excuse to suicide. That I could use that rejection to suicide. I guess maybe there might be some truth in that. I think today has been about me wanting to jump before I was pushed as well. Sorry for the heavy. 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Heavy is not a problem @Teej .....

Glad to hear you talking it out.

💜

[The-red-centaur]

@Teej I don't know what to say to make it better but hugs. I hear you. And I want you to hear how strong you are

[Teej]

Thank @The-red-centaur, @Faith-and-Hope. 

You don’t need heavy just now @Faith-and-Hope. I’ve just written a thesis to sans and might try for sleep soon. 

I hope you both have a good evening. 💜🤗

[Faith-and-Hope]

Heavy is different when it’s not your own heavy @Teej .....

I hope you sleep well Hon.

Hugz ❣️

[CheerBear]

Hey @Teej. Just dropping by to say I'm thinking of you today. That's all really 💗

[Teej]

Thanks @CheerBear. The phone call lasted all of 4 mins. Just got off but not am as crazy as I have been.  I don’t have a diffinitive idea either way as to if therapy is going to happen or not. I’m so confused as to all this. I have an appointment next Friday to see her. 

I read your awesome news. I’m so pleased that you have had all that hard work rewarded and the security you deserve. 💜🤗

[CheerBear]

Oh @Teej. Big hugs. I don't know about you but I prefer definite answers either way to uncertainty. So confusing :face_with_rolling_eyes: Is it a face to face appointment next Friday? Hugs again.