My Mosaic

[AuntGlow]

I understand, gosh that feeling can be so intense, can't it? @Bow 

I know that not a lot feels in your control at the moment and I can't imagine how vulnerable this feels for you... what do you imagine this part of you that's feeling panicked needs most right now? 

[Bow]

I need safety tonight I think @AuntGlow  and need someone to listen to me. Not just sit and nod but to hear me. 

[AuntGlow]

Okay, this is really great awareness @Bow. 

What is one thing we can do to create safety in the body right now?

And then one person you can turn to for support/to share what's going on? 💛

[Bow]

I’m not real sure @AuntGlow  sorry  see I’m stupid can’t even figure that out

i don’t really have anyone around tonight. All I can really do is make some notes and maybe share them with my sw or cm tomorrow 

[AuntGlow]

No, not stupid at all! Just finding grounding a bit hard and so the mind is taking over. 🥰 @Bow 

I think taking down some notes would be really helpful. Maybe you could note down what you're feeling, what you're thinking, and what core beliefs are coming up for you? Then when you chat to your SW, maybe you can explore how you can nurture yourself in these moments?

I would like to suggest doing something loving for your inner child. Something that really nurtures and validates how they are feeling. Could you try that tonight? 

[Bow]

I can try write those kind of things down @AuntGlow i got paper ready to go for tomorrow so I can add to that

i really struggle with inner child/vulnerable child. I did a schema therapy group last year for eating disorders and we did a fair bit of work around vulnerable child and just couldn’t do it. We had to bring in a photo of us at around 5yrs old and it was up on the wall every week. I could never look at her. Could never connect with her. She’s in a locked box. 
Sorry

[AuntGlow]

Okay, wonderful. @Bow 

And yes, I hear you. Inner child stuff can feel so, so vulnerable. I used to be the same - I couldn't look at photos of my young self without feeling really uncomfortable, embarrassed, ashamed. And I know now that this would have been how I felt at that age... it's really tough stuff to confront. Know that you're not alone; I do believe in time your relationship to your inner child will shift. But for now, maybe we can just look at adult Bow who is having a hard day. How would you like to comfort yourself? 💛

[Bow]

Just been down to check on my mumma cat and babies and say goodnight and have had my meds and crawled into bed @AuntGlow 

@got my fan on high so I can snuggle down under the blankets with my weighted sloth. 

I would like to go to sleep very quickly but I don’t feel like that’s going to happen tonight unfortunately. So I may end up watching something on tv

[AuntGlow]

I am glad you have taken your medication and that you have snuggled into bed - I really hope you get some rest tonight (the weighted sloth sounds perfect right now!). 

I hope you're watching something that helps you settle or smile. I will be here to chat more tomorrow. @Bow 💖

[Bow]

Not sure if your around @AuntGlow ?