My Mosaic

[Bow]

If you want @tyme 

[Shaz51]

I have a headache too @Bow , @Eve7 

Sitting with you 💕 

Today has been hot and humid 

@tyme , @Snowie 

[tyme]

Loneliness can be a bugger of thing. It comes and goes when it pleases. Even when the room is full, loneliness likes to rear its head. 

I know it all too well. I sat with it for over a decade. It was like this inner void that made me so empty that it ate me up inside.

Yet with hope, I have to say for me, loneliness was a state of mind. 

Ultimately, I don't really know what filled that void, but I just don't feel it anymore. I wonder what can fill your cup today @Bow 

I can list so many things about you that I'm grateful for. Can you?

[Bow]

No I can’t @tyme  im so down on myself so much churning around inside but I won’t say any of that

watched a movie this afternoon which has now got me stuck in really negative unhelpful thoughts. 
Urgh and now I’m gonna start crying again

[tyme]

Oh @Bow . I hope you can find some compassion for yourself and know you are only human. We are often so hard on ourselves and the more we tell ourselves not to think a certain way, the more stuck we get. 

You are the author or your narrative. What can you do to change your narrative? Why? Because you deserve the best narrative you can get. 

You are a powerful writer.

[Bow]

Grrrrrrr another day wasted on the couch doing nothing. Feel so pathetic. I feel so angry and frustrated with myself. Grrrrr

[Bow]

It’s like a vicious cycle of feeling so tired and depleted that I have zero energy to do anything. Then I feel angry and frustrated with myself cause I’m not doing anything productive. Then I feel even more depressed. And round and round we go.

[Ru-bee]

Hey @Bow sometimes all we can manage is to get through the day, and if we can do that in a sorta okay way, then that's all we can ask of ourselves. I know it's really frustrating, I've been going through a real slump in my energy right now too and I'm feeling very unproductive which makes me feel guilty. I've just been trying to focus on just trying to do some things, like I have no energy for the dishes but I can bring myself to cook meals, so I'm trying to tell myself that's a win. 

Sorry you're going through this right now, at least you've been able to share here, that's not nothing

[Bow]

Thanks @Ru-bee 

I’ve just picked D up from school and she was grumpy as heck cause I parked on the other side of the road… it was the only spot to park. She gave me attitude all the way home. Told her to quit with the attitude cause I’ve had a bad day too. But she kept going. 

I was gonna go try and do something once I picked her up. But she’s made me cranky.

oh and I found out this arvo that my pdoc has left too. Like I seen him just last week and he didn’t even say anything. That will be the 5th pdoc in 2 yrs. £=€¥!

[Eve7]

Bummer about your pdoc @Bow and d’s attitude, not what you need today.

Ive done didly squat today too while the builder dismantled my pergola ready for the new one next week.

Just some quiet time now before I get back into excel 😩