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[PeppiPatty]

@Former-Member 

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Cuddle from Arlo....

[Maggie]

@Sans911💕💕💕

[Shaz51]

@PeppiPatty,
@Sans911, 

@outlander

@Maggie

[Shaz51]

@Former-Member, my friend forever

[eudemonism]

Everyday over the last decade. I've been having the thougths which lead to myself getting out of this predicament. And which mean I'm providing myself with what i need and want. And more often then not. These thougths are overridden bye thougths judgment, stigma, fears and negative thinking cycles. Which i blame the comprehensive picture of society for. 

[outlander]

Maybe one day ill be important enough to care about. Do this do that do this. But it doesnt matter if i am unwell.
Tears streaming but it doesnt matter

[Snowie]

I worry that I cannot recover from this. Plans made over and over in my head. I don't even care about me anymore. 

[TheVorticon]

Pest inspector for the apartment block today. I wish he'd hurry up and do my unit so he could be gone and I could get on with my day.

[Former-Member]

I feel like I am out of place 

All I hear in my head these days are the voices that bring me down.

"Your worthless"

" What's the point in doing that, your just gonna fail anyway"

" Nobody cares about you, doesn't matter what you in the end your all alone"

" Why bother getting up nobody wants to see you"

" You fail at living but you have no choice because you failed at dying too"

" Your a horrible person"

It's all I hear all day long. I can't make it stop. At moment it's so hard because even if though the voices are always there they are usually just a whisper but for the last few days they scream and yell, I find it so hard to concentrate on anything else. 

At the moment the guilt and emotional pain I feel over my friends death is the fuel for these voices which is triggered due to the 16th anniversary of her death and burial having just past and the 16th anniversary of my first Si attempt approaching I am in a difficult time. But it is affecting me so hard this year and I don't know  why. 

[Teej]

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