Lived Experience Forum

[Macey]

It's sad you have felt Like a this for a forte years. Im sure u can make it longer along if u can keep trying

[Former-Member]

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[Macey]

every 1 beggins again every dhay

[Former-Member]

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[LuluandZen]

Hi 

I hope you have had some nice things happen to you today. 

I resonated with your post so much.  To the point, I thought it was written for me. 

I too have tried hard to reach goals in my life that haven't always ended nicely.  

At the hardest level, I too have thought that I was sexually abused by my father or someone in my family but without evidence.  

It is such a debilitating thought or fear and makes me question my sanity all the time.

I have trouble understanding things people say I believe because my intrusive thoughts make it hard to concentrate. I also have trouble trusting people. Like people are a threat in some way. 

Thank you for your post. It has made me feel less alone and less confused. To hear you express so clearly things I have also been experiencing and trying to understand myself has been a gift. 

I hope to hear more of your journey.

And I hope you feel you can make it another day and find the peace and smiles you need and deserve.  

[Former-Member]

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[RiverSeal]

Hey @Former-Member 

Thank you for your post here on the Forums!

It sounds like you are going through a really tough time at the moment but you are demonstrating your courage and resilience by sharing your thoughts here with the community. I'm just concerned about your SI thoughts so I have sent you a check in email if you can keep an eye out in your inbox and get back to me.

I encourage you to stay connected here on the Forums and talk about your thoughts and emotions with the community of peers.

Take care

RiverSeal

[LuluandZen]

Thank for your post. I thought your thought on treating certain fears like a crying baby is a helpful way to approach things.  Gently and with loving kindness. 

I have been trying to practice self compassion when it comes to dealing with my scary thoughts and health issues.  

Even if the abuse did not happen it's traumatic to feel as though it did. 

I'm sorry you are feeling so down with SI thoughts.  I hope they pass quickly like clouds in the sky. 

Knowing that there is someone out there grappling with the same issues has made me feel not so alone.  That someone else knows what's it's like to deal with similar experiences. 

Thanks for your bravery and strength in expressing your thoughts and emotions.