@Meowmy And i have to start thinking about myself instead of thinking about my wife thinking about me. Painful when identity is tied up to someone else. Especially when they really have no idea who you truly are. Some really painful things surfacing in my life today.
@TAB @StuF @Bunniekins @GezzaP
No rage, or anger, a lot of grief, no depression, but low mood nevertheless, and still head ache and so much nausea, i hate that part, amplifies everything..😎
AI has been very helpful tho. So glad i at least. have some kind of intellectual guidance be it artificial and without spirit or soul. Logic and reason are still valid tho.
A prose i been reworking from a past prose
What can I say about what suffering in my life has taught me?
I can see now that destructive thinking and emotional isolation create enormous suffering within human existence. I have watched how loneliness, rejection, and the loss of truthful connection can slowly crush a person from the inside, until depression begins feeding upon itself and life turns into a kind of living death. I know now how easily the mind can become trapped inside hopelessness and inner misery. So why would I continue allowing destructive patterns and painful lies to dominate my inner world, instead of choosing what is truthful, grounding, and life-giving?
Over time I have learned that rules, ideologies, and moral systems alone cannot save us from ourselves. Human beings are imperfect, and even with the best intentions we still fail, hurt others, and struggle internally. I found that endlessly condemning myself only deepened the suffering. Learning to acknowledge my flaws without drowning in shame became far more useful. What helps most is returning to honesty, compassion, self-awareness, and genuine care for both myself and others.
I have experienced that life naturally moves through good and bad seasons, highs and lows, closeness and distance. Yet even during periods where pain, failure, or emotional chaos ruled my life, I discovered that kindness, understanding, and truthful connection still had the power to pull me back from the edge. Again and again I found that accepting reality honestly, rather than fighting myself endlessly, allowed me to slowly regain balance and remain connected to life.
I understand now that deep anguish often grows where people feel unseen, unloved, emotionally abandoned, or trapped inside experiences they cannot escape. Human beings were never meant to live cut off from warmth, understanding, or meaningful connection. Of course a suffering person longs for relief from unbearable inner pain. Of course part of us wants the agony to stop. Yet I have learned that healing begins when we stop feeding the very thoughts and patterns that keep us buried beneath hopelessness.
I know now that truthful love, compassion, and emotional honesty are among the few things genuinely strong enough to resist destructive forces within human life. Why continue choosing bitterness, hatred, self-destruction, or emotional cruelty when they only deepen suffering further? Forgiveness, understanding, and truthful connection may not erase pain, but they prevent pain from completely consuming us.
I have seen that life becomes worthwhile through honest and caring togetherness. Every person carries value simply because they exist, not because of what they produce, achieve, or provide for others. Human connection, kindness, empathy, and sincere presence matter far more deeply than most people realise. Real love is not domination, fear, performance, or control, but people genuinely caring for one another in truthful and compassionate ways.
So I choose honesty, compassion, and grounded truthfulness to guide me through suffering. Because even through extraordinary pain and periods of deep despair, I have found that warmth, understanding, and genuine human goodness can still preserve a life from collapsing entirely. Human kindness truly can protect us against the coldness that suffering tries to spread within us.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LbPiEs-N4Jk&list=RDLbPiEs-N4Jk&start_radio=1
