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thanks suzanne ☺ well i find it hard sometimes. i think it all does have a big impact on me but i also feel kind of confused!! mr kiki realises it is all a pretty big deal and i know he appreciates me but sometimes i feel a bit resentful i think, that our whole lives are really focused around his illness/es.
my sister died this year too which was and is super horrific. it was cancer but she also had mental illnesses. so mental illness seems kind of normal to me i think?
but its tiring and i just wish he could be better so we can get on with life. it feels like i am stuck in a repetitive loop...2 steps forward 1 step back 3 steps forward 6 steps back......