Coping with negative/suicidal thoughts.

[Former-Member]

Oh, thanks for asking, i pretty much keep it shoved deep down @outlander, wont burden you too much with details as i know you have much to carry yourself. Think i only had one whoosh / wave of suicidal urge yesterday, a visual reminder of the night my girl died (in front of me). It comes up from the depths & crushes me, bringing strong suicidal thoughts with it... 😩

wrecks me for the day, most days, have to go lay down most times.  Sometimes get despairing wondering -

- don't know if i can keep doing this.

Its not fair.

But the intense moment is getting shorter with the years at least (still as deep) or maybe i'm use to it... 

Thanks for asking, giving me a place to get this out ❤

H O P E 💔

[outlander]

@Former-Member ❤❤ im sorry i havent been around much. Your not burdening me with anything. I cant imaginr what you went through/going through re your loss. They say time heals all wounds but i dont know about that.
Hugs and hugs ❤

[Former-Member]

Thanks @outlander, hope youre ok?
Just reading on another thread, convo about SI "just do it" head voice... Helps to know how others deal with it.
@911, @Teej

[Appleblossom]

Sorry you are going through this atm. @Former-Member

Even the way you write about it whoosh ..and up it comes ... is very much like my experience.  I dont want to keep reminding either of us.

but thanks for being around Bella Signora

[outlander]

Morning @Former-Member
There are lots of members who deal with those voices including myself and Apple. I know which thread your talking, if your comfortable you can join in there if you would like.
I hope todays ok for you. Dont listen to those voices. Keep reaching out for help as well as offline ♥

[BlueBay]

❤️ @Former-Member

[Former-Member]

Thanks @outlander, @BlueBay, Appleblossom... ... I'm so much better than i was - for nearly two years i t was all day every day, couldn't even look at a bin liner without thinking of using it. The thoughts were soooooo persistent and frightening. In retrospect I think it corrolates directly with emotional distress, flashbacks spike emotional distress (unwanted memory intrusion), and circumstances like family conflict, abuse, loss etc has a pressure cooker affect. Chuck in the flashbacks & maybe thats why its hurting tight now. I donno

[Ant7]

@Former-Member ❤️ You have been in my thoughts I hope you are doing ok.

[outlander]

@Former-Member

[outlander]

Hope your going ok @Former-Member ❤