I can’t cope

[AuntGlow]

Good morning @Captain24! 🌞

That's okay, we can work on it over time, if you'd like?

I think having your feelings is really important. Maybe we can explore how you share them? For example, "x made me feel this and it's hitting on the core belief that I am y." Then maybe you could reflect, "I need z to feel safe right now." And... we can work on it together!

What are your thoughts on this? 🥰

[Captain24]

Hi @AuntGlow 

That would be good. I want to feel safe again. 

I want to be able to share again. I was really struggling last night but was too scared to say anything. I had to call for help it was that bad. 

I need to learn to not jump immediately to the wrong conclusions. Not to read the wrong way. Not take things out of context and think before I speak.

I need to learn to understand my feelings and be able to appropriately share them when I need to. 

Im sorry I am so much of a problem. 

[AuntGlow]

Okay, let's give this a go then! @Captain24 🫶

I am so sorry last night was as intense as it was. Though, I am glad you called for help, that takes a lot of self awareness and courage. 

It's all a learning process and it takes time. I am still working through thought patterns like this too. You're not alone. 🥰

[Captain24]

I only call if I’m desperate. @AuntGlow. I’m scared to pick up the phone. I couldn’t get to sleep until 2 am. It just wouldn’t stop. 

Today is shaping up the same

[AuntGlow]

Oh gosh, that sounds so overwhelming for you @Captain24.

Okay, let's go through some things together. 

1 - Can you label what you are feeling and notice what part of you it might be coming from (to create a little seperation)? 

2 - Are you able to ask that part what it needs? 

3 - What do you have control over in this moment? And what is one thing you can do to meet this need for now. 

Let's start there? 🫶

[Captain24]

I’ll try @AuntGlow I'm worried about getting it wrong. [edited by moderator]

1. Distressed. I don’t know where it’s coming from it’s deep down. I think it’s from sharing so much and then last nights meeting someone shared their childhood too. 

2. It needs reassurance I think. It needs to feel safe. I need to get over it. 

3. I don’t know what I need. Maybe comfort but I don’t know where from. I’m trying to distract, I’ve done a lot of Lego. 

[AuntGlow]

Okay, this is great noticing @Captain24. 

It sounds like this part of you is feeling quite overwhelmed, and if it's an older feeling it makes sense for it to feel really big in the body. 

I think needing reassurance and to feel safe is reall understandable here. What do you imagine would feel comforting right now?

PS: Maybe "I need to get over it" could be shifted to something more compassionate like, "I am noticing that I need reassurance right now to feel okay, and I am going to practice being kind to myself, even if it takes time." 💛

[Captain24]

I hug would be comforting but that’s not possible. My hugger lives 4 hours away! Oh and she is currently in Italy! @AuntGlow 

I don’t know what to do that’s comforting. That’s hard. 

[AuntGlow]

Aw, that's tough... when is she back? @Captain24 

Hmm, what might feel like a hug? Do warm showers or cozy jumpers help? 

Do you have a weighted blanket or soft toy? 💛

[Captain24]

In a couple of days. I’m not sure when I’ll see her again. Not for a long time I don’t think @AuntGlow.

I could try a hot shower and my fake Oodie. I just have to go out and get something for dinner first. I couldn’t be bothered to go grocery shopping. It was too hard and I didn’t want to face people. 

This is all I’ve done today